sweet finch

finch wrote this for me for valentine's day. i have a copy that hangs on the fridge, and whenever i get frustrated with him i read it and i remember how much i love him. i thought that i would share it with you, i asked if i could, so that you can see what a sweet guy he really is deep down inside. hope you enjoy.

Sometimes at night, when I close my eyes,
I start thinking of you and then ask myself, why?
Why do I love you? I think and I smile,
because I know the list could run on for a mile.
The whisper of your voice, the warmth of your touch,
so many little things that make me love you so much.
The way you support me, and help with my emotion,
the way that you care and show such devotion.
The way that your kiss, fills me with desire,
and how you hold me with the blaze of a fire.
The way your eyes shine when you look at me,
here with you forever is where I want to be.
The way that I feel when you're by my side,
a sense of completion and overflowing pride.
The dreams that I dream, they all involve you,
the possibilities I see and the things we can do.
How you finish the puzzle that lies in my heart,
how so deep in my soul, you are the most important part.
I could go on for days, telling you how I feel,
but all you really must know is my love for you is real.

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ok, sorry i know two posts in one day, please forgive me. i am curious about something. why is it 10 years later people decide that they want to be your friend? what the crying myself to sleep the final year and a half in high school wasn't enough for them. they need to hunt me down and torment me more? for those of you who were my friend then you know i'm not talking about you. i'm talking about the jerks who called me the "lesbian thespian" and other fun things. the ones who tied dead rabbits to the back of my car. why do they invite people like me to reunions? is it so they can continue the hell? sorry, i just needed to vent. thanks. quick note to this blog. as many of you know i attended two high schools. the first in gladewater wasn't that bad, and i do miss a good majority of my peers. caldwell however, not so much. i do have several dear friends from this school, but for the majority well you read the blog.

more reading fun

most of you know that i LOVE to read, so i am thrilled that the wee finch has devoured the 5 books that we got her on monday. i went today and got the next 5 in the series. i also went by the canyon library to look at their selection of books. to my surprise i found that they have the AR list for our local elementary school. this means that the wee finch can read books that she enjoys and get points for them at school. you have no idea how excited i am. i have gotten many ideas from my dearest sisters, neither is really my sister. one is a very dear friend and the other is my dearest in law. i loved the ramona books and snot stew, i'm new to piggly wiggly, but i am currently reading it. not joking. i like to know what my kids are into. also, my weight struggle has taken a turn. i am gaining weight again. this is simply because this summer has been rough. i have enjoyed my extra time with the cowden clan, but it seems like everything else has been tough. i began again today to regain some of my motivation. i figure i have lost 30 lbs. the last thing i want to do is regain it. especially since i got rid of my fat clothes. thanks much for the advice and yes leah, ramona is like several little girls that i know :) hope this week finds you in good spirits and surrounded by love.

reading

school is officially here. the eldest of the wee finches started yesterday to second grade. i still don't feel old enough to have a second grader. when she got home from school, she had the customary paperwork that needed to be filled out and sent back. being the good mom that i am i filled it all out and sent it back with her today. while reading a note from her teacher that had listed some of her goals for the students reading, i saw that they were going to be doing chapter books. the eldest of wee finches has tons of books, but alas no chapter books. we made a trip to town after school to purchase some that come highly recommended by pattylicious. we purchased the first five of the magic tree house books. by the time the eldest of the wee ones went to bed she had read the first two and half of the third book. now this might not seem like a huge accomplishment to some, but that is around 160 pages in about an hour and a half. that is quite impressive to me. she is loving the books, so it looks like tomorrow i will be purchasing some more of the books. if anyone has a suggestion about other books for a second grader let me know.

love

WORD OF THE DAY- confabulation: familiar talk.

http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/love
while trying to find a good word of the day i decided to look up the word love. WOW. the site listed is where i looked. there are so many meanings and i have felt a good many of them. the last several days i have been pondering some of these experiences. for example, when i was in the children's home we sang a song that said "and they will know we are christians, by our love, by our love. yes they will know we are christians by our love." really, how awesome it would be for someone to say "you are such a loving person you must be a christian." instead of "wow, i thought most baptists were hypocrites." "are you sure your baptist? you don't seem to be close minded and ignorant." when did these descriptions take the place of the one in the hymn? i didn't get the memo. while watching the two wee finches play i thought to myself "now that is love". each of them so innocent and they were just laughing and playing. it was really an awesome moment. i know that we all make mistakes and fall short of the glory of God, but why do some 'upstanding' members of churches feel the need to fall so far from any description of love?
while we are on the subject of love i want to say how wonderful it is to be loved. i am loved by God, finch, the girls, my fam (well most of it anyway), my true friends (you know who you are), and slowly by myself. it has been a struggle for me to love me. the other love has helped me with this. i am slowly beginning to see that i am lovable and i should have the decency of bestowing upon myself that which i give others. the wee one beckons from her bed. have a great weekend.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT- in the words of Herbert Agar "The truth that makes men free is for the most part the truth which men prefer not to hear."

what do you want to be when you grow up?

WORD OF THE DAY-desideratum: something desired.

never in my wildest dreams did i think that this is what i would be doing when i grew up. come on i was smart, funny, good looking, and had the whole world in front of me. then i met this guy and we got married. then we had the most miraculous thing called a baby. suddenly all of the things i was going to do seemed unimportant. here are some pics of my beautiful girls at play.

if you look really hard you can see the nipple she has tried to attach to the coke can. she tried this on an entire case of fresca before she gave up. she would calmly pick up the can, put the nipple on top, and attempt to drink the soda. as she began to realize that it wasn't working with this can she moved on to the next. this continued for a good part of the afternoon. i had no idea that having kids and being a housewife could be so amusing.



that would be tea that she is pouring into the wee cup. i have adored a good cup of hot tea ever since i went to england in high school. when we lived in canyon my hubby would send me flower bouquets that were arranged in tea pots, so that when the flowers had faded i could enjoy a pot of tea and remember them. a while back my favorite in law sent me a tea pot it is lovely and had i zoomed back a wee bit farther you could have seen it too. anywho, the last several days in the afternoon the eldest of wee finches and i have been enjoying "tea parties". these are complete with cookies. yesterday she was drinking her tea faster than i could pour, so i put her tea in a little pitcher and let her serve herself. i hope to continue these parties when school starts by having them when she gets home from school and before homework begins.

i thought that both the word of the day and the food for thought were fitting for the mood. i never new that this is what i wanted to be when i grew up, but i'm sure glad God knew. there are days when being a housewife feels like work, but there are more when it feels like play. i am so grateful that my husband is willing to forgo on certain material things so that i can stay home with the girls.

FOOD FOR THOUGHT- in the words of Evan Esar "Play: Work that you enjoy doing for nothing."

time flies

WORD OF THE DAY- nonage: a period of youth or immaturity
where did the time go? the youngest of the wee finches is 18 months old, the eldest of the wee finches is starting second grade, and the hubby and i will celebrate 9 years together this fall. the above picture is of the eldest wee finches on her first day of school. i know that i am far from being old, but on certain days it is hard to believe how big the girls have gotten. this is probably because i don't think i'm old enough to have girls that age yet. as school approaches i am wondering how it will go. will it be like kindergarten, and be horrible for all involved? will it be like last year, and be a wonderful experience? only time will tell. before i know it this year will be over and a new year begun.
FOOD FOR THOUGHT in the words of Roger Allen "In case you're worried about what's going to become of the younger generation, it's going to grow up and start worrying about the younger generation."