i just want to live while i'm alive

what a weekend we had. we took the girls to go see bolt on friday, it was cute. on saturday we had a wee get together for monkey's birthday. i can't believe how big she is getting. i know that sounds corny, but it doesn't seem like that long ago. amazon gave monkey an easy bake oven for her birthday, i'm a bit jealous. we are having a family birthday party for her on friday after thanksgiving. my aunt sue is baking the cake for her. i went to the post office friday to send my thankful things swap package, and there waiting for me were 3 packages. i was sure at least 2 had to be for monkey, but no they were all for me. one was my thankful things package.
the humorous part is that many of the things she was thankful for i am too, so she got different things for the same thankful. the other two packages were from my friend vanillafrog. this is what was in them.
monkey was sad there wasn't anything at the post office for her, so i let her have a piece of paper from the notepad. i LOVE surprise gifties, and these couldn't have come at a better time. the hubby and i had a HUGE fight on thursday and my best bud called to let me know that her situation had gone from bad to horrible. well, the hubby and i are fine he admitted that he had been inconsiderate and i said that i would try not to get my feelings hurt. then yesterday i got news that my best bud's situation is improving. so the gifties were the beginning of a wonderful weekend. thanks you guys.

take your fast car and keep on driving

i've been having a rough week. we are officially a 1 car family which means that as the housewife, i don't get the car. strange when the hubby was describing the job he didn't mention 12 hour days with me having no transportation. he also didn't mention that he was going to be gone overnight at least once every week. strange i might not have been so excited about it. i know i'm whining, but i'm really upset by this. we also discussed that one of the towns that he will be working is close enough that he wouldn't need to stay the night there, so can someone explain why he stayed there last night? i've been feeling puny the last few days due to the walk to the post office and bank. it's only a little over a mile round trip, but i felt like someone had kicked me in my uterus. whole lot of no fun. some updates for my loyal bloggy readers. my best bud's news has not gotten any better and i may need to bust a few kneecaps to get the problem resolved. supermom is feeling better. amazon's loser ex is in town to see the kids, talk about wanting to bust some kneecaps. my mom is getting excited about our visit to see her next week. we are getting ready for monkey to turn 9. i only feel old when i think about her age, strange huh. well, i feel a wee bit better now that i have vented some. on to my thankfuls

I AM THANKFUL FOR:

1. Pastor Paul- i needed a ride to church so i could fix dinner and he was having dental work done and couldn't help. he smiles and says use the church van, so i did. it was nice not to have to walk to church.

2. swaps- i have been a lousy swapper the last round of swaps. i had my packages ready on time, but i just didn't make it to the post office. they are all sent and should be received by friday. look what i got though
this is the apron i received for the hot cups for hot mamas apron swap isn't it fab.
it's reversible too. my lady also sent a beautiful mug, it's in the wash so no pic sorry, some way awesome hot chocolate and some marshmallows. it is amaretto flavored chocolate, my fave.
this is my sassy christmas apron and the picture does it no justice. it is sparkly and pretty and wonderful. i had to fight to get it away from the girls. in the package i also got some yummy tea, the gingerbread tea is divine, a cookie cutter, and stencil.

3. friends- i know i put this one on every week, but i really don't know what i'd do with out them. amazon picked monkey up from basketball, so i wouldn't have to walk to go get her. my dearest best bud let me vent and whine, and what she is going through is WAY more difficult than what i'm whining about. all of you who were so worried about me. man am i blessed. thanx

4. my health- yeah i don't feel 100%, but i'm healthy. i can walk, talk, sing, listen, and so much more.

5. my washer and dryer- the 2 weeks when i didn't post, i didn't do much at all including laundry. the fact that my washer and dryer are large capacity make the job much easier now that i have to do it. in fact since monday i have done roughly 10 loads. i wonder why i'm worn out?

6. my sister in law- yeah, we might not agree on everything, but what an amazing woman and friend she has become. she calls regularly to check up on me and the wee ones, even though she has a house full of sick little ones.

7. moments of peace- with a 2 1/2 year old they don't come often, but i sure enjoy them when they do.

8. hot tea- really warms me up on days when the wind won't stop blowing.

9. the pick up- man will i be happy when it is running again.

10. laughter- sometimes it really is the best medicine.

what are you thankful for this week? is it the cold chill in the air, the first snow, a baby's smile, or the future and all of the possibilities that it holds? take time to tell those around you how you feel. call your mom tell her love her, she wants to hear it. hope you have a great weekend.

let it snow, let it snow let it snow

i found this site last year, and i absolutely loved it. it lets you make cut out snowflakes online. monkey had the best time doing them. i hope you guys enjoy.

it's a love story baby just say yes

sorry, i know it has been forever, but things have been...crazy. the cramping has calmed down considerably. in fact it is only bad when i decide to be up and active for more than 20 minutes at a time. the hubby started his new job and was in dallas for 3 days. i attempted to cope, but didn't do so good. last week was really rough. a good friend, we'll call her supermom, was sent to the hospital for what they thought was her gallbladder. she has 3 little ones at home and she doesn't do sit and be still very well. amazon went to supermom's house to take care of her little ones while she was at the hospital, and i ran some things to her for her little one's. that same monday my best bud called and had some really crappy news, and i would share, but it isn't my place. let's just say that it is hard for me to see my friends in pain, physical or emotional. i am a wee bit over protective of the people i love. that's probably because there are so few of them. supermom is out of the hospital and feeling better. the doctors aren't really sure what the problem was, but they are pretty sure it was her gallbladder. the best bud's news is...still not so good, but i am praying that things get...better? the lady that used to work with my hubby that has the staph infection is out of the hospital and doing much better. she's still trying to build her strength up, but she says that she is feeling better. i felt the wee one move on wednesday. apparently it was happy to have daddy home too. monkey brought home all A's again this 6-weeks, and we are way proud of her. i also received my christmas apron and am just tickled pink. i hope to have pics up this week, but the hubby will be gone wed-thurs, so i don't make any promises. well, on to my thankfuls

I AM THANKFUL FOR:

1. prayer- thanks for all the well wishes and prayers they are much appreciated.

2. love- both that i am privileged to give and receive.

3. the girls- how wonderful it is to have a hug from someone so sweet.

4. the weather- i do love the cool weather, i love snow too, but we haven't gotten any of it yet.

5. V8- really have been craving it lately, so good thing we have plenty.

6. our preacher- what an amazing man he is. he is always willing to help no matter what time i ask.

7. God's grace- He always watches over me and keeps me safe. even when i don't realize it.

8. hot tea- what an amazing relief this has been.

9. schwann's fruit pops- not sure if it's the cold or the sweet or maybe both, but these cut the stomach ache almost instantly.

10. my mom- she came to stay with me on tuesday to help with the girls. she did this even though she had irritated her sciatic nerve.

11. family- both the ones we pick and the ones God picked for us.

12. texts- what a great way to communicate when you can't talk on the phone.

13. good night's sleep- i don't sleep well when the hubby is gone, so it was nice to get a full night's rest when he got home.

14. peace- the kind that only comes from God.

15. the holiday season- i love this time of year and all that it means.

16. the hubby's new job- he hasn't been this excited about work in all the time i've known him. it is good to see him this happy.

17. friends- even when times are tough it is good to know that they are there.

18. lotion- to keep me from drying completely up during the cold/dry weather.

19. the future- it is looking great and i am getting excited.

20. blogs- i love that i can take a peek into people's lives and feel like part of there world.

i'm sorry this has bee so late coming, but i've been a wee bit crazy. i hope that the coming week finds you well and happy. i hope that the coming season finds you loved. what are you thankful for? thanks again for reading.

make it hurt so good

well, it doesn't hurt good it just hurts. this will be short because i am in some decent pain. i have had some cramping this week, nothing serious, just uncomfortable. i am spending the majority of my time stationary on the couch. hope to be able to post tomorrow for thankful thursdays.

i'll always hold a place for you in my heart

what a day it has been. i got a call from school that monkey was running a fever and needed to be picked up. i went and picked her up, and promptly called amazon to let her know that i would be taking the girls with me today. i can not in good conscience let someone with small children watch my children if i know one is ill. she says she feels fine, but as long as she has a fever she isn't allowed at school. in fact she isn't allowed back at school until her fever has been gone for 24 hours. that means no school tomorrow. which means no trick or treating tomorrow night. we are very strict about "if you are too sick for school-you are too sick for fun after school". the hubby told his helper that he had an appointment to go to today and that he would be leaving for the day at 2. the entire family of finch sat in the drs. office and listened to the most beautiful "thud-thud" of a wee finch. what an amazing sound it is! God is so good. thank you for all of your prayers, and now i have some more requests. one of the ladies that has worked with the hubby for the last 6 years is very ill. she had back surgery several weeks back and was recovering very well. last weekend her back was hurting so she went to the hospital. while there they discovered that she has a staph infection in her back that has moved into her blood. she is currently in a medically induced coma fighting to get better. she has a little boy who is monkey's age and a wonderful husband. please keep her and her family in your prayers.

I AM THANKFUL FOR:

1. prayers- the power they hold is amazing. i have seen this power so many times, yet every time a prayer is answered it still dumbfounds me that someone so powerful will listen to a little me.

2. friends- your comments, prayers and well wishes have been so wonderful and comforting. THANK YOU

3. my daughters- sometimes i just can't believe that someone so amazing is the product of someone so messed up. i am so thankful that they will never know what my life was like as a child, and that they know how wonderful they are and how much they are loved.

4. the dishwasher- so glad the hubby just loads the thing, turns the dial, and the dishes are done.

5. hubby's new job- we are both so excited about the possibilities that this brings with it. if nothing else we will have health insurance for the first time in 7 years.

6. contentment- when asked what i wanted for my birthday i didn't know because i honestly want for nothing. there isn't anything tangible that i can't live with out. what an amazing feeling that is.

7. pattylicious- i called her in tears yesterday because i needed to hear that everything was going to be ok, and she reassured me that it would be. she listened to me sob and pour out my fears. she is an amazing friend, and i'm not sure what i would do with out her. thanx man u rock

8. hot tea- it seems to be one of the most soothing and relaxing things ever.

9. old pictures- that remind me of how far i've come and how blessed i truly am.

10. hugs- i'm not a big fan of human touch, long story from childhood, but i have been so grateful for the hugs that i have received the past week. they have been so much more comforting than just a simple word.

what are you guys thankful for a few inches of snow, indian summer, a much needed vacation, or the warm words from friends? take the time to find something to be grateful for, no matter how insignificant you think it is. there are days that i am simply grateful for clean undies. have a happy halloween and a blessed weekend. HEY, YOU GUYS ROCK, THANKS.

i'm not crazy, i'm just a little impaired

ok, so i feel i need to share. tomorrow afternoon is my first drs. appointment, and i am really nervous. crazy huh. i mean i've had two babies, this isn't anything new, but i still find myself with butterflies in my stomach and it isn't the summer sausage and cheese i had for lunch. i'm currently about 11 weeks or so. that means we should be able to hear a heartbeat tomorrow. the problem is my miscarriage happened at 11 weeks and i find myself dreading the absence of the tiny thud-thud. i just don't know if i could do that again, and the hubby won't be able to attend the appointment because of work related issues. so if there isn't a thud-thud i will be the only one to know. i know this is irrational, but still i dread it. my wonderful friend amazon is keeping the girls for me, so i can go to the appointment. she watched the girls yesterday so i could get my blood panel done. anywho, this has been eating at me for the past few days and i needed to get it off my chest. on a happy note i am almost finished with my apron for the hot mamas swap. i'm also knitting a baby blanket for a friend's baby shower in 2 weeks. my mom's coming up for the weekend and has agreed to watch the girls, so the hubby and i can have a wee date. she's going on the church trick or treating hayride with us on friday evening, and we're excited to have her. well, i will have news good or not so good on my thankful thursday tomorrow. take care and have a wonderful wednesday.